【 观众 来信 · 下 】 十九个 来自 观众 的 温暖 小 故事 ， 我们 都 是 渺小 却 发光 的 存在 ✉️Letters from subscribers [Cartas de suscriptores-siguiente] Diecinueve cálidas historias de suscriptores, todos somos pequeñas pero brillantes existencias ✉️Letters de suscriptores [Cartas dos assinantes - Seguinte] 19 Histórias calorosas de assinantes, Somos todos seres pequenos mas brilhantes ✉️Letters dos assinantes 【观众来信·下】十九个来自观众的温暖小故事，我们都是渺小却发光的存在✉️Letters from subscribers [Audience Letters · Part Two] Nineteen warm little stories from the audience, we are all small yet shining existences ✉️ Letters from subscribers

铛铛 你好 ding ding| ding ding|hello Ding ding, hello

以前 我 都 是 潜水 党 ||||plongée|groupe before|I|all|am|diving|party In the past, I was always a lurker

没有 给 你 发过 私信 |||sent|message privé not|to|you|sent|private message I have never sent you a private message

刚 看到 你 发 动态 ||||post just|saw|you|post|updates I just saw your post.

所以 给 你 发 个 消息 ||||message| so|give|you|send|a|message So I'm sending you a message.

也 不算 是 我 的 故事 |not count|||| also|not count|is|my|attributive marker|story It's not really my story.

只 算是 我 20 多岁 的 一件 经历 |considered||||| only|count as|I|plus years old|attributive marker|one|experience It's just an experience from my twenties.

我 现在 24 岁 I|now|years old I am now 24 years old.

是 一名 三年级 的 直博生 ||étudiant de troisième||doctorant direct is|a|third grade|attributive marker|direct PhD student I am a third-year direct PhD student.

在 武汉 出生 于 很 普通 的 农村 家庭 |Wuhan||born in||||| at|Wuhan|born|in|very|ordinary|attributive marker|rural|family I was born in Wuhan in a very ordinary rural family.

主要 事情 在 我 22 岁 的 时候 main|thing|at|I|years old|attributive marker|time The main events happened when I was 22 years old.

那 时候 我 大 4 ，10 月份 父亲 头昏 ||j'avais|||était étourdi| that|time|I|in|month|father|dizziness At that time, I was in my fourth year, and in October, my father started feeling dizzy.

开始 start He began

就医 最后 查出来 的 是 脑干 部位 的 胶质瘤 consultation médicale|finalement|diagnosed|||tronc cérébral|localisation||gliome seek medical treatment|finally|find out|attributive marker|is|brainstem|location|attributive marker|glioma to seek medical treatment, and it was finally diagnosed as a glioma in the brainstem.

基本上 是 不治之症 ||maladie incurable basically|is|incurable disease It is basically an incurable disease.

第二 second Second

2 月份 的 时候 谈 了 4 年 的 女朋友 跟 我 分手 ||||||||||break up February|attributive marker|time|date|past tense marker|4 years|attributive marker|girlfriend|with|me|broke up In February, my girlfriend of 4 years broke up with me.

这里 解释 一下 不是 here|explain|briefly|is not Let me explain here, it is not

因为 我 父亲 的 原因 because|I|father|attributive marker|reason because of my father's reasons.

我 父亲 当时 还 没 确诊 I|father|at that time|still|not|diagnosed My father had not been diagnosed at that time.

主要 原因 是 他 觉得 我 陪 她 不够 多 main|reason|is|he|feels|I|accompany|her|not enough|much The main reason was that he felt I didn't spend enough time with her.

付出 不够 effort| effort|not enough Not enough effort.

那 一年 多 是 真正 黑暗 的 时期 that|one year|more than|is|truly|dark|attributive marker|period That year was truly a dark period.

父亲 在 家里 养病 |||se rétablir father|at|home|recuperate Father is recuperating at home.

我 在 学校 忙 自己的 事 I|at|school|busy|own|matters I am busy with my own matters at school.

浑浑噩噩 的 dans le flou| muddled|attributive marker In a daze.

每天 也 就是 给 家里 打 一下 电话 every day|also|just|to|at home|make|once|phone call Every day, I just make a phone call to the family.

问问 情况 ask|situation Ask about the situation

那个 时候 在 学校 里 都 不敢 笑 that|time|at|school|inside|all|dare not|laugh At that time, I didn't dare to laugh at school

每当 自己 笑 的 时候 都 会 觉得 every time|oneself|laugh|attributive marker|time|all|will|feel Whenever I laughed, I would feel

对不起 家里 的 父亲 sorry|at home|attributive marker|father Sorry for my father at home

期间 太 多 辛酸 的 事情 |||triste expériences|| during|too|many|bitter|attributive marker|things During that time, there were too many bitter experiences.

现在 回想 起来 都 历历 在目 |en y repensant||vividement|| now|recall|up|all|vividly|in sight Now, looking back, they are all vivid in my memory.

12 月份 的 时候 In December,

父亲 去世 了 father|passed away|emphasis marker my father passed away.

我 刚刚 写 了 很多 具体 的 过程 I|just|wrote|past tense marker|many|specific|attributive marker|process I just wrote a lot of specific processes.

很 艰辛 大概 有 几千 字 ||||thousands| very|arduous|probably|have|several thousand|words It was quite arduous, probably a few thousand words.

但 写 完 之后 又 删 了 |||||supprimé| but|write|finish|after|again|delete|emphasis marker But after finishing, I deleted it.

倒 不是 我 不 愿意 提起 on the contrary|not|I|not|willing|bring up It's not that I am unwilling to bring it up.

写 着 写 着 就 想 删掉 ||||||delete (1) write|ongoing action marker|write|ongoing action marker|just|want|delete While writing, I just want to delete it.

觉得 太 具体 的 过程 feel|too|specific|attributive marker|process I feel that the specific process is too detailed.

没 必要 让 大家 花 时间 去 了解 not|necessary|let|everyone|spend|time|to|understand There's no need for everyone to spend time understanding it.

只想 跟 大家 分享 一下 我 的 心境 |||partager||||état d'esprit just want|with|everyone|share|a bit|my|attributive marker|state of mind I just want to share my state of mind with everyone.

那 一年 多 that|one year|more than That year plus one

因为 觉得 自己 是 个 男人 because|feel|oneself|is|a|man Because I felt like I was a man

基本上 没 怎么 哭过 |||crier basically|not|how|cried I basically never cried much

直到 父亲 离开 的 那天 until|father|leave|attributive marker|that day Until the day my father left

我 自己 都 没有 意料到 自己 会 哭 得 那么 惨 ||||prévoir||||||si mal I|myself|even|did not|expect|myself|would|cry|to|so|badly I didn't even expect that I would cry so badly.

就是 看见 他 的 一瞬间 就 会 不自觉 地 大哭 ||||||||involuntarily| just|see|him|attributive marker|moment|then|will|unconsciously|adverbial marker|cry loudly Just seeing him for a moment makes me unconsciously burst into tears.

瘫 在 地上 哭 paralysé||| collapse|on|ground|cry I collapsed on the ground crying.

我 的 几个 婶婶 都 拉 着 我 I|attributive marker|several|aunts|all|pull|ongoing action marker|me Several of my aunts were holding me.

可 那 时候 就 感觉 不 受 控制 but|that|time|then|feel|not|under|control But at that time, I felt out of control.

可能 是 把 自己 积蓄 一年 possibly|is|to|own|savings|one year It might be that I cried out all the emotions I had saved up for a year.

多 的 情绪 全 哭 出来 了 ||émotions|toutes pleurent||| too much|attributive marker|emotions|completely|cry|out|emphasis marker In the end, a few of my aunts also cried with me.

最后 带 着 我 几个 婶婶 也 跟着 我 哭 |||||tantes||suivent|| finally|bring|ongoing action marker|I|several|aunts|also|follow|me|cry

后来 事情 也 慢慢 过去 了 later|things|also|slowly|pass|past tense marker Later, things slowly passed.

现在 我 在 学校 念 博士 now|I|at|school|study|doctorate Now I am studying for a doctorate at school.

母亲 在 家 上班 mother|at|home|work My mother is working at home.

虽然 家里 虽然 没 啥 钱 Although there isn't much money at home.

过日子 没 啥 问题 未来 的 事 la vie|||||| live life|no|any|problem|future|attributive marker|things Living life, there are no problems, it's about the future.

再 说 again|say Let's talk about it again.

我 一直 认为 自己 是 一个 乐观 的 人 I|always|believe|myself|am|one|optimistic|attributive marker|person I have always believed that I am an optimistic person.

现在 回想 起来 now|recall|up Now that I think back.

其实 分手 的 事 让 我 很 难过 |breakup|||||| actually|breakup|attributive marker|thing|make|me|very|sad Actually, the breakup made me very sad.

只是 当时 父亲 的 事 更 严重 ||||||grave just|at that time|father|attributive marker|matter|more|serious It's just that at that time, my father's situation was more serious.

被 我 压 在 了 心底 |||||au fond by|me|press|on|emphasis marker|bottom of the heart I buried it deep in my heart.

后来 父亲 走 之后 later|father|leave|after Later, after my father passed away.

失去 父亲 的 痛 和 分手 的 难过 lose|father|attributive marker|pain|and|breakup|attributive marker|sadness The pain of losing a father and the sadness of a breakup.

就 慢慢 释放 出来 just|slowly|release|out Just slowly let it out.

自己 调整 了 很久 很久 才 好 起来 oneself|adjust|past tense marker|a long time|a long time|only then|well|up It took a long, long time for me to adjust and feel better.

这 期间 也 没有 太 压抑 |||||oppressif this|period|also|not have|too|oppressive During this period, I didn't feel too suppressed.

只是 性格 变得 和气 了 一些 just|personality|become|friendly|emphasis marker|a bit It's just that my personality has become a bit more gentle.

时常 提醒 自己 要 善良 也 挺 好 的 ||||être bienveillant|||| often|remind|oneself|to be|kind|also|quite|good|emphasis marker It's quite good to often remind myself to be kind.

现在 觉得 这 段 经历 就 真的 比 我 成长 起来 now|feel|this|segment|experience|just|really|than|I|grow|up Now I feel that this experience has really helped me grow.

以前 我 觉得 上天 让 22 岁 的 我 去 经历 了 before|I|feel|heaven|let|years old|attributive marker|I|to|experience|past tense marker In the past, I felt that heaven made me go through this at the age of 22.

这些 有些 不 公平 these|some|not|fair These are somewhat unfair.

后来 才 觉得 也 没有 什么 公不公平 later|only|feel|also|not have|anything|fair or unfair Later, I felt that there was really nothing to be concerned about fairness.

等 自己 成长 起来 就 真的 没 啥 好 怕 的 了 wait|oneself|grow up|up|then|really|no|anything|good|fear|attributive marker|emphasis marker When I grew up, I really had nothing to be afraid of.

现在 的 我 就 十分 确信 now|attributive marker|I|just|very|certain Now I am very sure.

不管 出现 什么 事 no matter|appear|what|matter No matter what happens

可能 当时 你 觉得 很 难 possibly|at that time|you|feel|very|difficult You might feel it's very difficult at that time

但 真的 任何 事 都 会 有 过去 的 那一天 but|really|any|thing|all|will|have|past|attributive marker|that day But really, everything will have a day in the past

等 那天 你 再 回过头来 看 wait|that day|you|again|turn back|look When that day comes, you can look back again

再 大 的 事 也 看淡 了 even|big|attributive marker|matter|also|look at lightly|emphasis marker No matter how big the matter is, it can be seen lightly.

这点 我 真的 非常 同意 this point|I|really|very|agree I really agree with this.

博士 的 生活 真的 很 累 PhD|attributive marker|life|really|very|tired Being a PhD is really exhausting.

而且 很 考验 人 的 moreover|very|test|people's|attributive marker Moreover, it tests a person's character.

而 当 你 的 吴老 就 真的 像 你 的 简介 一样 but|when|you|attributive marker|Old Wu|just|really|like|you|attributive marker|profile|the same And when your Wu Lao really is just like your introduction

非常 的 治愈 very|attributive marker|healing very healing

我 一直 以来 都 很 喜欢 I|always|since|all|very|like I have always liked it very much

简单 的 生活 simple|attributive marker|life a simple life

两个 人 一起 简简单单 的 过 平凡 的 生活 two|people|together|simply|attributive marker|live|ordinary|attributive marker|life Two people living a simple and ordinary life together.

你 和 柳哥 的 日子 简直 就是 我 的 理想型 you|and|Liu brother|attributive marker|days|simply|is|my|attributive marker|ideal type Your days with Liu Ge are simply my ideal.

其实 我 大概 三四个 月 前 才 发现 你 actually|I|about|three to four|month|ago|only|discover|you Actually, I probably only discovered you about three or four months ago.

后来 就 一发 不可 收拾 later|then|once|cannot|be controlled After that, it just spiraled out of control.

开 了 你 之前 所有 的 视频 open|past tense marker|you|before|all|attributive marker|videos I opened all the videos you had before.

现在 你 每次 更新 我 都 会 留 now|you|every time|update|I|all|will|leave Now, every time you update, I will leave.

到 夜深人静 的 时候 看 to|deep into the night|attributive marker|time|to see I watch when it's late at night.

只有 在 半夜 的 时候 only|at|midnight|attributive marker|time Only at midnight.

自己 才 会 完全 沉静 下来 oneself|only|will|completely|calm down|down Only then can one completely calm down.

感受 生活 的 美 feel|life|attributive marker|beauty Feel the beauty of life.

柳哥 的 性格 也 超级 好 Liu Ge|attributive marker|personality|also|super|good Liu Ge's personality is also super nice.

而且 非常 幽默 moreover|very|humorous And he is very humorous.

未来 我 也 想 成为 他 那样 的 人 future|I|also|want|become|he|that kind of|attributive marker|person In the future, I also want to become a person like him.

另外 additionally Additionally,

当 你 不用 在意 自己 的 语速 when|you|don't need to|care about|yourself|attributive marker|speaking speed when you don't have to worry about your speaking speed,

我 觉得 你 慢慢 说话 的 时候 也 很 好 I|feel|you|slowly|speak|attributive marker|time|also|very|good I think it's also very good when you speak slowly.

和 你 的 视频 风格 很 搭 and|you|attributive marker|video|style|very|match Your video style matches very well.

你 不用 特意 剪 得 很 紧凑 you|don't need to|specifically|cut|to|very|compact You don't need to edit it too tightly.

而且 长沙 塑普 也 很 好 moreover|Changsha|Su Pu|also|very|good Also, the Su Pu in Changsha is very good.

听 起来 很 幽默 listen|seem|very|humorous It sounds very humorous.

希望 你 和 柳哥 的 生活 永远 简单 hope|you|and|Liu brother|attributive marker|life|forever|simple I hope your life with Liu Ge is always simple.

快乐 钱 治愈 happy|money|heal Happiness and money heal.

谢谢 你 的 这 封 信 thank you|you|attributive marker|this|measure word for letters|letter Thank you for your letter.

也 很 至于 谢谢 你 跟 我 分享 这么 多 also|very|as for|thank you|you|with|me|share|so|much Also, thank you for sharing so much with me.

祝 你 读博 一路 顺利 wish|you|pursue a doctorate|all the way|smoothly Wishing you a smooth journey in your PhD studies.

铛 姐 你好 ding|sister|hello Hello, Sister Dang.

我 目前 是 一名 国内 大三 的 本科生 I|currently|am|one|domestic|junior|attributive marker|undergraduate student I am currently a third-year undergraduate student in China.

也 是 计算机 向 专业 相关 的 also|is|computer|towards|professional|related|attributive marker I am also related to the computer science field.

而且 也 是 你 湖南 老乡 moreover|also|is|you|Hunan|fellow townsman Moreover, you are also my fellow townsman from Hunan.

我 分享 一下 我 的 大学 生活 I|share|a bit|my|attributive marker|university|life Let me share a bit about my university life.

我 当时 高考 的 时候 对于 我 的 成绩 并 不 满意 I|at that time|college entrance examination|attributive marker|time|regarding|my|attributive marker|grades|not|satisfied|satisfied At that time, I was not satisfied with my scores in the college entrance examination.

只 考 了 一个 二本 学校 only|take exam|past tense marker|one|second-tier|school I only got into a second-tier university.

江苏 理工学院 Jiangsu|Institute of Technology Jiangsu University of Technology

成绩 出来 的 时候 grades|come out|attributive marker|time When the results come out

包括 一直 在 大 一 很长 一段时间 include|continuously|at|big|one|a long|period of time Including a long period of time during my freshman year

我 都 经常 会 为 这件 事情 苦恼 I|all|often|will|for|this|matter|troubled I often feel troubled by this matter

而且 大一 上 学期 一直 处于 moreover|freshman year|first|semester|continuously|in a state of Moreover, during the first semester of my freshman year, I was in a state of confusion.

一个 比较 迷茫 的 状态 one|relatively|confused|attributive marker|state Most of my classmates were just passing the time.

身边 的 同学 大多数 都 是 混日子 的 beside|attributive marker|classmates|most|all|are|passing time|attributive marker I also didn't like being with them.

我 也 很 不 喜欢 与 他们 在 一起 I|also|very|not|like|with|them|at|together

所以 我 当时 就 立志 一定 要 考上 so|I|at that time|just|set a goal|definitely|want to|get into So at that time, I was determined to get into a good graduate school.

一个 好 学校 的 研究生 one|good|school|attributive marker|graduate student Then I kept making plans.

然后 我 就 不断 的 制定 计划 then|I|just|continuously|attributive marker|formulate|plans I found the right direction for my efforts.

找准 自己 的 奋斗 方向 find accurately|oneself|attributive marker|struggle|direction

慢慢 的 我 从 迷茫 开始 slowly|attributive marker|I|from|confusion|start Slowly, I started from confusion.

进入 了 一个 越来越 自律 的 生活 状态 enter|past tense marker|one|more and more|self-discipline|attributive marker|life|state I entered a state of life that is becoming increasingly disciplined.

下个 学期 准备 开始 考研 了 next|semester|prepare|start|graduate school entrance exam|emphasis marker I am preparing to start my graduate school entrance exam next semester.

我 的 目标 是 北邮 华科 中南 这 类 院校 I|attributive marker|goal|is|Beijing University of Posts and Telecommunications|Huazhong University of Science and Technology|Central South University|this|type|universities My goal is to get into universities like Beijing University of Posts and Telecommunications, Huazhong University of Science and Technology, and Central South University.

具体 哪 一所 还要 看 情况 specific|which|one school|still need to|see|situation Which specific one depends on the situation.

这 两年 多 来 我 基本上 每天 都 会 this|two years|more than|since|I|basically|every day|all|will For more than the past two years, I have basically been doing this every day.

制定 好 详细 的 每日 计划 formulate|good|detailed|attributive marker|daily|plan I have been making a detailed daily plan.

从 早上 6 点 到 晚上 11 点 多 一直 在 坚持 着 from|morning|6 o'clock|to|evening|11 o'clock|more|continuously|at|persist|ongoing action marker I have been sticking to it from 6 AM to after 11 PM.

我 也 会 继续 的 I|also|will|continue|emphasis marker I will continue as well.

所以 说 经常 也 会 感觉 到 有 一些 疲惫 so|say|often|also|will|feel|to|have|some|fatigue So I often feel a bit tired.

特别是在 放假 的 时候 Especially during holidays.

总 感觉 自己 经常 是 一个人 想 一起 出来 玩 always|feel|myself|often|is|alone|want|together|go out|play I always feel like I'm often alone wanting to go out and have fun.

都 没有 人 一起 all|not have|people|together No one is together.

确实 是 很 寂寞 indeed|is|very|lonely It is indeed very lonely.

但是 这种 心态 也 可以 很快 的 被 我 调整 过来 but|this kind of|mindset|also|can|quickly|attributive marker|by|I|adjust|come back But this mindset can be quickly adjusted by me.

继续 前进 continue|move forward Keep moving forward.

我 一直 坚信 一句 话 想 成为 I|always|firmly believe|one|saying|want|become I have always believed in a saying: to become someone different.

为 不 一样 的 人 就要 做 不 一样 的 是 for|not|the same|attributive marker|people|must|do|not|the same|attributive marker|things To be a different person, you must do different things.

要 想 自己 变得 更好 want|think|oneself|become|better You have to want to become better.

就 必须 经历 这些 一个 人 努力 的 日子 just|must|experience|these|one|person|hard work|attributive marker|days You must go through these days of hard work alone.

其实 我 挺 喜欢 编程 的 actually|I|quite|like|programming|emphasis marker Actually, I quite like programming.

所以 对于 学习 其实 更 多 so|regarding|learning|actually|more|much So, when it comes to learning, it's actually more.

还是 对 自己 挺 满意 的 still|towards|oneself|quite|satisfied|attributive marker I am still quite satisfied with myself.

但是 的确 还有 很多 要 学习 but|indeed|still have|many|need|learn But indeed, there is still a lot to learn.

的 知识 和 进步 的 空间 attributive marker|knowledge|and|progress|attributive marker|space the knowledge and space for progress

我 一直 是 一个 热爱 运动 的人 I|always|am|one|love|sports|person I have always been a person who loves sports

所以 空余 的 时间 大部分 都 so|spare|attributive marker|time|most|all so most of my free time is spent

花 在 打篮球 和 健身 上 spend|on|playing basketball|and|fitness|on playing basketball and working out

当然 还 包括 看 当姐 的 视频 of course|also|include|watch|sister|attributive marker|videos Of course, it also includes watching sister's videos.

我 觉得 运动 给 我 的 帮助 很大 I|feel|exercise|give|me|attributive marker|help|very big I feel that exercise has helped me a lot.

不仅仅 是 身材 上 的 not only|is|body shape|on|attributive marker It's not just in terms of body.

更 多 是 心态 上 more|many|is|mindset|on More so in terms of mindset.

这 也 是 我 相对 单调 的 学习 生活 this|also|is|my|relatively|monotonous|attributive marker|study|life This is also the most important seasoning in my relatively monotonous study life.

中 最 重要 的 调味剂 了 in|most|important|attributive marker|seasoning|emphasis marker Moreover, my goal is to be a programmer.

而且 我 的 目标 是 做 个 程序员 moreover|I|attributive marker|goal|is|to be|a|programmer A person with a very good figure.

中 身材 很 好 的 人 middle|body shape|very|good|attributive marker|person

括号 parentheses Bracket

我 觉得 柳哥 的 身材 也 还行 I|think|Liu Ge|attributive marker|body shape|also|okay I think Liu Ge's figure is also okay.

柳哥 要 偷着 乐 了 Liu Ge|want|secretly|have fun|emphasis marker Liu Ge is going to secretly be happy.

最后 我 说 last|I|say In the end, I said.

铛 姐 和 柳哥 我 关注 你们 是 我 看 了 你 那个 dang|sister|and|Liu brother|I|follow|you|is|I|watch|past tense marker|you|that Sister Dang and Brother Liu, I follow you because I watched that of yours.

女 程序员 的 一天 应该 有 一年 多 了 female|programmer|attributive marker|one day|should|have|one year|more than|emphasis marker It's been over a year since I saw the day in the life of a female programmer.

我 真的 很 向往 你们 的 生活 状态 I|really|very|yearn for|your|attributive marker|life|state I really admire your lifestyle.

特别 是 柳哥 有 这么 好看 的 一个 老婆 especially|is|Liu Ge|has|so|good-looking|attributive marker|one|wife Especially Brother Liu, you have such a beautiful wife.

而且 我 还 真 想 和 刘狗 solo 一下 篮球 moreover|I|still|really|want|with|Liu Dog|solo|for a while|basketball Moreover, I really want to solo with Liu Gou in basketball.

希望 你们 的 生活 也 越来越 好 hope|you all|attributive marker|life|also|more and more|good I hope your lives get better and better.

希望 以后 有 机会 能 在 长沙 hope|in the future|have|opportunity|can|in|Changsha I hope there will be an opportunity to meet in Changsha in the future.

一起 吃 个 饭 也 是 极好 together|eat|measure word|meal|also|is|excellent Having a meal together would also be great.

希望 铛 姐 能够 坚持 更 视频 hope|ding|sister|be able to|persist|more|videos I hope Sister Dang can keep making more videos.

每次 看 你们 的 视频 every time|watch|your|attributive marker|videos Every time I watch your videos,

我 都 会 会心 一直 想 向往 的 生活 I|all|can|understanding|always|want|yearn for|attributive marker|life I always feel a deep connection and long for the life I aspire to.

奋斗 的 目标 struggle|attributive marker|goal The goal of striving.

因为 看到 优秀 的人才 会 想 自己 变得 更 优秀 because|see|excellent|talents|will|want|oneself|become|more|excellent Because seeing outstanding talents makes one want to become better.

姐姐 伴随 我 大学 最后 一年 艰苦 的 岁月 sister|accompany|I|university|last|year|difficult|attributive marker|years My sister accompanied me through the difficult final year of university.

去年 10 月份 刷 到 你 last year|October|swipe|to|you I came across you in October last year.

那 是 考研 最后 阶段 that|is|graduate school entrance exam|final|stage That was the final stage of the graduate school entrance exam.

经常 学到 死胡同 often|learn|dead end Often learn to dead ends

偶尔 会 很 丧 occasionally|can|very|depressed Occasionally feel very down

这时 就 会 刷 一些 视频 来 逃避 学习 at this time|then|will|scroll|some|videos|to|avoid|studying At this time, I will watch some videos to escape from studying

每次 刷 到 铛姐 的视频 都会 every time|scroll|to|Dang Jie|videos|will always Every time I come across Dang Jie’s videos, I will

感慨 优秀 的 人 都 在 努力 sigh|excellent|attributive marker|people|all|are|working hard Feeling that excellent people are all working hard.

我 凭 什么 放弃 自己 I|on what basis|what|give up|myself Why should I give up on myself?

看到 你 在 闹 see|you|at|make noise Seeing you making a fuss.

柳个 在 笑 的 场景 Liu Ge|in|laugh|attributive marker|scene The scene of Liu Ge laughing.

也 会 幻想 研究生 期间 会 不会 also|will|fantasize|graduate student|period|will|not will I also wonder if I will encounter such love during my graduate studies.

遇到 这样 的 爱情 encounter|such|attributive marker|love I know very well that outstanding people deserve the best.

我 深知 优秀 的 人 是 值得 最好 的 I|deeply know|excellent|attributive marker|people|is|worth|the best|attributive marker Only by striving forward can one achieve the life they desire.

只有 奋力 向前 跑 才能 得到 自己 想要 的 生活 only|strive|forward|run|can|get|own|want|attributive marker|life

来自 一位 正在 读研 的 码农 from|one|currently|studying for a master's degree|attributive marker|programmer From a programmer who is currently pursuing a master's degree.

是 的 is|attributive marker Yes.

有时候 会 回想到 准备 GRE 出国 sometimes|will|think back to|prepare for|GRE|study abroad Sometimes I recall preparing for the GRE to study abroad.

那 段 时间 每天 也 是 非常 枯燥 that|period|time|every day|also|is|very|boring That period was also very tedious every day.

非常 单调 的 very|monotonous|attributive marker Very monotonous.

经常 一个 人 会 要 去 图书馆 一个 人 回来 often|one|person|will|need|go|library|one|person|come back Often, a person has to go to the library alone and come back alone.

但是 回 想起 那 段 时间 会 觉得 but|back|remember|that|period|time|will|feel But thinking back to that time, I feel that.

真的 是 值得 的 really|is|worth|emphasis marker It was really worth it.

祝 你 一切 顺利 wish|you|everything|smoothly Wishing you all the best

当 你 虽然 不是 我 第 1 个 关注 的 博主 when|you|although|not|my|the|one|follow|attributive marker|blogger Although you are not the first blogger I followed

但是 你 真的 是 我 最 喜欢 的 博主 but|you|really|are|my|most|favorite|attributive marker|blogger You are really my favorite blogger

谢谢 thank you Thank you

我 喜欢 看 你 和 柳哥 平时 真实 的 生活 I|like|watch|you|and|Liu Ge|usually|real|attributive marker|life I like to see your real life with Liu Ge.

也 喜欢 你 每次 发表 对 社会 also|like|you|every time|express|towards|society I also like your thoughts and insights on social issues every time you express them.

新闻 的 想法 和 见解 news|attributive marker|ideas|and|insights I enjoy the little surprises you have during your travels.

喜欢 你们 旅行 中 无意间 的 小 惊喜 like|you|travel|during|accidentally|attributive marker|small|surprise I like the unexpected little surprises during your travels.

当然 有时候 也 是 小 惊吓 of course|sometimes|also|is|small|scare Of course, sometimes it is also a little scare.

所有 的 这些 琐碎 的 片段 构成 了 你们 的 生活 all|attributive marker|these|trivial|attributive marker|fragments|constitute|past tense marker|your|attributive marker|life All of these trivial fragments make up your life.

我 也 很 有幸 的 看到 了 你们 的 生活 I|also|very|fortunate|attributive marker|see|past tense marker|you|attributive marker|life I am also very fortunate to have seen your life.

这样 真实 的 vlog 慢慢 成为 了 我 生活 的 慰藉 this|real|attributive marker|vlog|slowly|become|past tense marker|my|life|attributive marker|comfort Such a real vlog has slowly become a comfort in my life.

也 无意间 让 我 思考 起 我 将来 also|unintentionally|make|me|think|start|my|future It also inadvertently made me think about what my future will be like.

应该 过 什么样 的 生活 should|live|what kind of|attributive marker|life What kind of life should I lead?

但是 不管 是 朝九晚五 还是 相对 轻松 but|no matter|is|nine to five|or|relatively|easy But whether it's a nine-to-five job or a relatively relaxed one,

平淡 bland it's all quite ordinary.

是 真 才 是 我 想 达到 的 目标 is|really|only|is|I|want|achieve|attributive marker|goal It is true that this is the goal I want to achieve.

铛 姐 clang|sister Sister Dang.

我 想要 分享 一个 好 消息 I|want to|share|one|good|news I want to share some good news.

之前 在 你 的视频 下面 评论 before|at|your|video|below|comment Previously commented under your video.

要 考 托福 了 你 回复 了 我 want|take|TOEFL|emphasis marker|you|reply|past tense marker|me I have to take the TOEFL, you replied to me.

祝 我 考试 顺利 wish|I|exam|smoothly Wish me good luck on the exam.

今天 首考 出分 了 109 分 today|first exam|release scores|past tense marker|points Today I got my first test score, 109 points.

超级 开心 super|happy Super happy.

恭喜 喜欢 每周 看 铛铛 姐 的 vlog congratulations|like|every week|watch|dang dang|sister|attributive marker|vlog Congratulations on liking Dingdang sister's vlog every week.

希望 你 继续 拍 不了 分享 生活 的 点滴 hope|you|continue|take|cannot|share|life|attributive marker|bits and pieces I hope you continue to share the bits and pieces of life that you can't film.

danni 姐 Danni|sister Sister Danni.

看 你 的 视频 一年 多 了 watch|your|attributive marker|video|one year|more|emphasis marker I've been watching your videos for over a year.

最初 是 因为 在 美国 这边 找 工作 initially|is|because|in|America|here|find|job Initially, it was because I was looking for a job here in the United States.

所以 在 油管 看 了 你 的 视频 so|on|YouTube|watch|past tense marker|your|attributive marker|video So I watched your videos on YouTube.

最近 这 一年 一直 在 刷题 面试 recently|this|one year|continuously|at|practice questions|interviews For the past year, I have been constantly practicing interview questions.

很多 时候 都 被 打击 的 快 绝望 了 many|times|all|by|hit|attributive marker|almost|despair|emphasis marker Many times, I felt so discouraged that I was almost in despair.

但是 你 和 柳哥 的 vlog but|you|and|Liu Ge|attributive marker|vlog But your and Liu Ge's vlog

每次 都 能 给 我 带来 很多 欢乐 always brings me a lot of joy

让 我 感觉 生活 还是 很 美好 的 let|me|feel|life|still|very|beautiful|emphasis marker and makes me feel that life is still very beautiful.

最近 在 毕业 之前 终于 有 了 recently|at|graduation|before|finally|have|emphasis marker Recently, before graduation, I finally have.

第 1 个 offer the|one|offer The first offer

恭喜 所以 想要 来 congratulations|so|want to|come Congratulations, so I want to come

谢谢 你们 thank you|you all Thank you all

你们 拍 的 虽然 很多 是 生活 的 日常 you|shoot|attributive marker|although|many|is|life|attributive marker|daily Although many of the photos you took are daily life

但是 对于 很多 孤身 奋斗 的人 也 是一份 but|for|many|alone|struggle|people|also|is a But for many people who are struggling alone, it is also a form of

重要 的 陪伴 important|attributive marker|companionship important companionship.

以后 的 路 还 很 长 in the future|attributive marker|road|still|very|long The road ahead is still long,

但是 至少 我 走出 了 第 1 步 but|at least|I|walk out|past tense marker|ordinal marker|step but at least I have taken the first step.

希望 我 以后 也 像 你们 一样 温暖 积极 的 活着 hope|I|in the future|also|like|you|the same|warm|positive|attributive marker|live I hope to live warmly and positively like you in the future.

大概 一年 多 about|one year|more than About a year or so.

以前 我 即将 升入 大三 before|I|about to|enter|junior year I was about to enter my junior year.

那 时候 偶然 看到 了 铛铛 的 vlog that|time|accidentally|saw|past tense marker|Dangdang|attributive marker|vlog At that time, I happened to see Dangdang's vlog.

当时 的 我 刚 决定 出国 at that time|attributive marker|I|just|decide|go abroad At that time, I had just decided to go abroad.

但是 身边 几乎 没有 跟 我 一样 打算 的 朋友 but|around me|almost|have no|with|me|the same|plans|attributive marker|friends But there were almost no friends around me who had the same plans.

备考 的 时候 真的 非常 孤独 和 辛苦 preparing for exams|attributive marker|time|really|very|lonely|and|hard work Preparing for the exam was really very lonely and hard.

每次 GRE 单词 背 不下去 了 every time|GRE|words|memorize|can't continue|emphasis marker Every time I couldn't memorize the GRE vocabulary.

托福 听力 刷 吐 了 的 时候 TOEFL|listening|practice|vomit|past tense marker|attributive marker|time When I vomit from studying TOEFL listening.

我 就 会 看 一会 当当 的 vlog I|just|will|watch|for a while|Dangdang|attributive marker|vlog I will watch some of Dangdang's vlogs.

看 一会儿 柳哥 吹牛 b look|for a while|Brother Liu|brag| I will watch Liu Ge brag for a while.

看 会儿 luna 的 胖脸 look|for a while|luna|attributive marker|chubby face I will look at Luna's chubby face for a while.

真的 这么 长时间 really|so|long time Really, such a long time.

我 真的 觉得 你们 就 像 我的 朋友 一样 I|really|feel|you|just|like|my|friends|the same I really feel that you are just like my friends.

每次 受到 挫折 every time|receive|setback Every time I face setbacks.

听 你们 的 故事 listen|your|attributive marker|story Listening to your stories.

你们 的 声音 就 会 给 我 莫大 的 鼓励 you|attributive marker|voice|just|will|give|me|immense|attributive marker|encouragement Your voices will give me great encouragement.

那 时候 每周 最 盼望 的 就是 铛 更新 视频 that|time|every week|most|look forward to|attributive marker|is|dang|update|video At that time, the most anticipated thing every week was the update of the video.

可以 说 是 你们 让 我 坚持 can|say|is|you|make|me|persist You could say that it was you who made me persist.

在 这条 路上 走 了 下去 on|this|road|walk|past tense marker|continue I continued on this path.

现在 我 已经 大四 了 now|I|already|senior year|emphasis marker Now I am already a senior.

GRE 托福 也 刷 完 了 GRE|TOEFL|also|complete|finish|emphasis marker I have also completed the GRE and TOEFL.

学校 也 申请 了 很多 锁 school|also|apply|past tense marker|many|locks I have applied to many schools.

但是 每周 等到 妹 更新 的 习惯 已经 去 不 掉 了 But I still can't get rid of the habit of waiting for my sister to update every week.

每周五 就 youtube，b 站 来回 刷 Every Friday, I browse YouTube and Bilibili back and forth.

有 朋友 玩 B 站 的话 have|friends|play|||if If I have friends who play on Bilibili,

我 都 会 告诉 他们 I|all|will|tell|them I always tell them,

这 是 我 最 喜欢 的 阿普主 this|is|I|most|favorite|attributive marker|Apuzhu this is my favorite content creator.

谢谢 你 的 喜欢 thank you|you|attributive marker|liking Thank you for your liking.

最后 谢谢 你们 这 段 时间 的 陪伴 finally|thank you|you|this|period|time|attributive marker|companionship Finally, thank you for your companionship during this time.

如果 有 机会 以后 给 个 内推 if|have|opportunity|in the future|give|one|internal referral If there is a chance in the future, please give me an internal recommendation.

可以 啊 ，把 简历 私信 我 can|emphasis marker|object marker|resume|private message|me Sure, send me your resume in a private message.

铛 姐 ，我 是 之前 问 你 也 想 考 托福 出国 留学 的 bang|sister|I|am|before|ask|you|also|want|take|TOEFL|study abroad|study abroad|attributive marker Sister Dang, I am the one who asked you before about wanting to take the TOEFL to study abroad.

不 知道 你 还有 没有 聊天记录 not|know|you|still have|no|chat history I don't know if you still have the chat records.

能 不能 记住 我 can|cannot|remember|me Can you remember me?

因为 上次 过 完 你 之后 because|last time|past|finish|you|after Because after the last time we talked.

我 就 去 报 了 托福 班 I|just|go|register|past tense marker|TOEFL|class I just signed up for a TOEFL class.

虽然 最后 学 的 不是 太 好 although|finally|study|attributive marker|not|too|good Although I didn't learn very well in the end.

学了 几个 月 后 考 了 60 多 分 studied|several|months|after|took|past tense marker|more than 60|points After studying for a few months, I scored over 60 points.

没 办法 脱产 学 no|way|full-time|study I couldn't study full-time.

但是 上个月 我 偶然 抓住 了 but|last month|I|accidentally|caught|past tense marker But last month I accidentally caught a

一个 面试 特斯拉 的 机会 one|interview|Tesla|attributive marker|opportunity job interview opportunity with Tesla

然后 还是 美国 那边 层层 面试 then|still|America|over there|layers of|interviews and then it was a series of interviews in the US

就 因为 我 学 了 托福 just|because|I|study|past tense marker|TOEFL just because I studied for the TOEFL.

他们 还 挺 满意 的 they|still|quite|satisfied|emphasis marker They are quite satisfied.

我 就 来到 了 特斯拉 上海 这边 做 工程师 I|just|arrived at|past tense marker|Tesla|Shanghai|here|work as|engineer I came to Tesla in Shanghai to work as an engineer.

感觉 虽然 最后 结果 没有 出国 feel|although|finally|result|did not|go abroad I feel that although the final result was not going abroad,

但是 也 挺 满意 了 but|also|quite|satisfied|emphasis marker I am still quite satisfied.

这 就是 我 说 的 什么 this|is exactly|I|say|attributive marker|what This is what I mean.

有时候 努力 并 不是 追求 一个 结果 sometimes|effort|not|is not|pursue|one|result Sometimes, effort is not about pursuing a result.

而是 那个 过程 真的 让 你 收获 了 很多 but|that|process|really|make|you|gain|past tense marker|a lot But rather, the process really brings you a lot.

并且 像 这位 朋友 他 虽然 去 学 了 托福 and|like|this|friend|he|although|go|study|past tense marker|TOEFL And like this friend, although he went to study for the TOEFL.

但是 他 没有 出国 but|he|did not|go abroad But he did not go abroad.

但是 学习 托福 的 过程 让 他 找到 but|studying|TOEFL|attributive marker|process|make|him|find However, the process of studying for the TOEFL helped him find.

了 一份 非常 满意 的 工作 a very satisfying job.

这 就是 所谓 的 人生 没有 白走 的 路 this|is|so-called|attributive marker|life|no|wasted walk|attributive marker|road This is what is meant by the saying that there are no wasted paths in life.

铛 自从 在 youtube 看到 clang|since|at|YouTube|saw Ding, ever since I saw your vlog series on YouTube,

你们 的 vlog 系列 之后 you|attributive marker|vlog|series|after I have been following your updates continuously.

我 就 一直 在 追 你们 的 更新 I|just|always|at|follow|your|attributive marker|updates I really like some of your thoughts and lifestyle patterns.

真的 非常 喜欢 你们 的 一些 思维 和 生活 模式 really|very|like|you|attributive marker|some|thinking|and|life|patterns

这次 在 youtube 看到 了 this time|on|youtube|saw|emphasis marker This time I saw it on YouTube.

你们 在 收集 正 能量 故事 信息 之后 you|at|collect|positive|energy|story|information|after After you all collected positive energy story information,

我 有 了 把 自己 的 一些 事 给 你们 分享 的 念头 I|have|emphasis marker|emphasis marker|oneself|attributive marker|some|things|to|you|share|attributive marker|thought I had the thought of sharing some of my own experiences with you.

但是 觉得 我 的 事情 可能 but|feel|I|attributive marker|things|possible But I feel that my experiences might be...

算不上 多能 鼓励 别人 cannot be considered as|capable|encourage|others Can't really encourage others.

而且 没有 一个 moreover|not have|one Moreover, there isn't one.

正 能量 的 结尾 positive|energy|attributive marker|ending A positive ending.

所以 还 纠结 了 一阵子 so|still|entangled|past tense marker|a while So I was still tangled for a while.

说来 好笑 speaking of|funny It's funny to say.

最近 两周 每每 想发 的 时候 recently|two weeks|every time|want to send|attributive marker|time Recently, for the past two weeks, every time I wanted to post something.

到 最后 都 偃旗息鼓 until|the end|all|cease hostilities In the end, I always gave up.

到 今天 才 鼓起 勇气 打下 了 这些 字 until|today|only|muster|courage|type down|past tense marker|these|words It wasn't until today that I finally gathered the courage to write these words.

真的 不好意思 really|sorry I'm really sorry.

可能 叙述 有些 混乱 possibly|narrative|somewhat|chaotic The narrative might be a bit confusing.

因为 我 也 从来 没有 跟 任何人 说起 过 because|I|also|ever|never|with|anyone|talk about|ever Because I have never talked about this with anyone.

这 封 信 this|measure word for letters|letter This letter.

您 当做 我 长久以来 的 发泄 you|treat as|me|for a long time|attributive marker|venting You treat me as your long-term outlet.

我 现在 是 澳大利亚 本科 在读 留学 留学生 I|now|am|Australia|undergraduate|studying|studying abroad|international student I am currently an undergraduate student studying abroad in Australia.

今年 正 满 20 岁 this year|exactly|full|years old I just turned 20 this year.

事情 开始 的 时候 thing|start|attributive marker|time When things started.

我 大概 还是 在 初三 的 时候 I|probably|still|at|third year of junior high school|attributive marker|time I was probably still in the third year of middle school.

那 时候 少 不 更事 that|time|young|not|worldly-wise At that time, I was naive.

所以 那 时候 大部分 的 事情 还是 so|that|time|most|attributive marker|things|still So most things at that time were still...

之后 通过 父母 跟 我 的 描述 after|through|parents|with|me|attributive marker|description Later, through my parents' descriptions to me.

我 才 了解 个 大概 事情 I|just|understand|a|rough|matter I just understood the general situation.

与 我 的 家庭 有关 with|my|attributive marker|family|related to It is related to my family.

我 的 父母 均 是 体制 内 人员 I|attributive marker|parents|all|are|system|within|personnel Both of my parents are personnel within the system.

级别 职务 以及 家庭 条件 level|position|and|family|conditions Their ranks, positions, and family conditions.

在 二线 城市 里面 也 差不多 算是 中产 左右 in|second-tier|city|inside|also|almost|count as|middle class|around In second-tier cities, it is roughly considered middle class.

虽 不是 富 二代 although|not|rich|second generation Although not a rich second generation.

但 至少 也 衣食无忧 but|at least|also|no worries about food and clothing At least they are not worried about food and clothing.

在 我 初三 中 考前 at|I|ninth grade|in|before the exam Before my junior high school entrance exam.

父母 突然 做出 了 让 我 出国 读 高中 的 打算 parents|suddenly|make|past tense marker|let|me|go abroad|study|high school|attributive marker|plan My parents suddenly made plans for me to go abroad to study high school.

我 虽然 觉得 惊讶 I|although|feel|surprised Although I was surprised,

但是 也 比较 开心 but|also|relatively|happy I was also quite happy.

我 基本 没有 什么 叛逆 期 I|basically|do not have|any|rebellious|period I basically didn't have any rebellious phase.

所以 主要 也 是 因为 可以 见识 so|main|also|is|because|can|experience So mainly it's because I can experience

不 一样 的 世界 而 兴奋 not|the same|attributive marker|world|and|excited a different world that excites me.

大概 14 年 中下旬 approximately|14 years|mid to late period Around the late 14th year,

我 满 15 岁 不久 后 就 一个人 I|full|years old|soon|after|then|alone I was just about to turn 15 and went alone.

到 悉尼 生活 和 学习 了 to|Sydney|live|and|study|past tense marker Lived and studied in Sydney.

先是 语言 学校 在 之后 进入 十年 级 First at a language school, then entered Year 10.

也 就是 高一 ，一直 到 15 年 also|is|first year of high school|continuously|until|15 years That is, the first year of high school, until 2015.

我 基本上 是 在 毫无 烦恼 的 新鲜感 中 度过 的 I|basically|am|in|without|worries|attributive marker|freshness|during|spend|attributive marker I basically spent it in a carefree freshness.

新 的 朋友 新 的 环境 以及 家里 的 经济 支持 new|attributive marker|friends|new|attributive marker|environment|and|at home|attributive marker|economic|support New friends, new environment, and the financial support at home

都 让 我 觉得 那 是 最 快乐 的 时候 all|make|me|feel|that|is|most|happy|attributive marker|time all made me feel that it was the happiest time

大约 approximately About

在 15 年 的 下半年 in|15 years|attributive marker|second half of the year the second half of 2015

因为 高中 的 学业 并 没有 任何 负担 because|high school|attributive marker|studies|not|have no|any|burden Because the academic workload in high school was not a burden at all.

所以 当时 就 决定 和 同学 一起 so|at that time|then|decide|with|classmates|together So at that time, I decided to work with my classmates.

出来 打工 赚些 零花钱 come out|work part-time|earn some|pocket money We went out to work to earn some pocket money.

父母 也 比较 支持 我 的 决定 parents|also|relatively|support|my|attributive marker|decision My parents were also quite supportive of my decision.

15 年 中 的 时候 我 第 1 次 回国 year|during|attributive marker|time|I|||return to the country When I was 15 years old, I returned to my country for the first time.

直到 我 母亲 跟 我 说 until|I|mother|with|me|said Until my mother told me.

因为 她 的 一些 原因 导致 because|she|attributive marker|some|reasons|cause Because of some reasons of hers,

家里 的 经济 有些 紧张 at home|attributive marker|economy|somewhat|tight the family's finances were a bit tight.

他 听到 我 自己 出去 打工 的 消息 也 很 高兴 he|heard|I|myself|go out|work|attributive marker|news|also|very|happy He was very happy to hear that I would go out to work by myself.

所以 跟 我 父亲 商量 以后 so|with|my|father|discuss|after So he discussed it with my father afterwards.

就 让 我 自己 赚 生活费 just|let|me|myself|earn|living expenses They let me earn my own living expenses.

他们 支付 我 每年 的 学费 的 时候 they|pay|me|every year|attributive marker|tuition fees|attributive marker|time They pay for my tuition every year.

我 也 只是 在 想 I|also|just|in|think I am just thinking too.

我 终于 I|finally I finally.

可以 为 家里 减轻 一些 负担 can|for|home|lighten|some|burden Can lighten some burden for my family.

转眼 就是 16 年 年 中 in the blink of an eye|is|16 years|year|mid In the blink of an eye, it's already the middle of 2016.

我 放假 回国 I|have a holiday|return to the country I went back to my country for vacation.

气氛 依旧 融洽 atmosphere|still|harmonious The atmosphere is still harmonious.

但是 总 觉得 父母 在 瞒 着 我 什么 but|always|feel|parents|at|hide|ongoing action marker|me|something But I always feel that my parents are hiding something from me.

但 即使 是 父母 在 跟 我 沟通 but|even if|is|parents|at|with|me|communicate But even if it is my parents, they are communicating with me.

家里 的 经济 紧张 at home|attributive marker|economy|tight The family's finances are tight.

但是 一定 会 让 我 完成 学业 的 时候 but|definitely|will|make|me|complete|studies|attributive marker|time But they will definitely let me complete my studies.

我 也 没有 想 太多 I|also|not have|think|too much I haven't thought too much about it.

因为 他们 一直 都 是 值得 信任 的 because|they|always|all|are|worth|trust|attributive marker Because they have always been trustworthy.

我 也 只是 在 想 之后 有 时间 要 上班 I|also|just|at|think|after|have|time|need|work I am just thinking about having time to work after this.

争取 不 跟 家里 要 除了 学费 以外 的钱 strive for|not|with|family|ask for|apart from|tuition fees|outside of|money I strive not to ask my family for money other than tuition.

在 这 之后 at|this|after After this,

我 母亲 也 陆续 跟 我 单独 谈过 几次 I|mother|also|successively|with|me|alone|talked|several times my mother has also talked to me alone several times.

也 让 我 第 1 次 意识 到 事情 also|let|me|first|time|realize|to|things It also made me realize for the first time the seriousness of the situation.

的 严重性 attributive marker|severity The seriousness.

因为 一些 及其 所 匪夷所思 的 原因 because|some|and its|that|unimaginable|attributive marker|reason Because of some extremely unbelievable reasons.

他 在 银行 的 欠款 达到 了 7 位数 he|at|bank|attributive marker|debt|reach|past tense marker|digits His debts at the bank reached seven figures.

但是 他 也 再三 跟 我 保证 but|he|also|repeatedly|with|me|guarantee But he also repeatedly assured me.

不会 有 太大 的 问题 的 will not|have|too big|attributive marker|problem|emphasis marker There won't be any major problems.

父母 已经 互相 通过 气 也 觉得 可以 解决 问题 parents|already|each other|through|anger|also|feel|can|solve|problem The parents have already communicated with each other and feel that the problem can be resolved.

我 并 没有 干预 什么 也 没有 多问 什么 I|not|have not|intervene|anything|also|have not|ask too many questions|anything I didn't intervene or ask too many questions.

只是 说 相信 你们 可以 解决问题 Just saying I believe you can solve the problem.

17 年 在 我 参加 高考 前 几个 月 In 2017, a few months before I took the college entrance examination.

也 就是 我 18 岁 生日 的 时候 also|is exactly|I|years old|birthday|attributive marker|time That was also around the time of my 18th birthday.

一天 晚上 11 点 多 one day|evening|11 o'clock|more than One night around 11 o'clock.

我 爸 突然 给 我 发 了 一 封 手写 的 信 的 照片 I|dad|suddenly|give|me|send|past tense marker|one|measure word for letters|handwritten|attributive marker|letter|attributive marker|photo My dad suddenly sent me a photo of a handwritten letter.

信中 说 我 的 父母 16 年 年初 就 已经 离婚 in the letter|said|my|attributive marker|parents|16 years|beginning of the year|already|already|divorced The letter said that my parents had already divorced at the beginning of 2016.

分居 了 之后 我 回去 的 时候 separation|past tense marker|after|I|go back|attributive marker|time After they separated, when I went back,

为了 瞒 着 我 in order to|||me they were trying to hide it from me.

我妈 都 是 提前 几天 回家 一起 住 my mom|all|is|in advance|a few days|go home|together|live My mom always comes home a few days in advance to live together.

而且 我 母亲 一 开始 并 没有 moreover|I|mother|one|start|actually|not have Moreover, my mother did not inform my father about these matters at first.

知会 我 父亲 这些 事情 inform|me|father|these|matters The household has always been managed by my mother.

家里 一直 是 母亲 管账 at home|always|is|mother|manage the accounts My mother has always been in charge of the finances.

所以 父亲 也 没有 多 问 so|father|also|did not|much|ask So my father didn't ask much.

直到 母亲 因为 负债 数额 巨大 until|mother|because|debt|amount|huge Until my mother had a huge amount of debt.

到 没有 办法 解决 了 to|no|way|solve|emphasis marker To the point where there was no way to solve it.

才 跟 我 父亲 坦白 only|with|my|father|confess Only then did she confess to my father.

在 父亲 试 过 所有 的 办法 之后 at|father|try|past tense marker|all|attributive marker|methods|after After my father tried all possible methods

也 无法 帮 她 还清 also|unable to|help|her|pay off he still couldn't help her pay off the debt

为了 不 影响 我 父亲 和 我 之后 的 生活 in order to|not|affect|my|father|and|my|after|attributive marker|life In order not to affect my father's and my future life

也 是 因为 发生 了 这些 事情 之后 also|is|because|happen|past tense marker|these|things|after and also because these events happened afterwards

他们 无法 一起 生活 了 才 做出 的 决定 they|unable|together|live|emphasis marker|only then|make|attributive marker|decision They made the decision only after they could no longer live together.

之后 after After that,

也 跟 我 通过 电话 also|with|me|through|phone he also contacted me by phone.

他 说 非常 愧疚 he|said|very|guilty He said he felt very guilty.

本来 想 瞒过 我 高考 才 跟 我 说 的 originally|want|hide from|me|college entrance exam|only|with|me|say|emphasis marker Originally, I wanted to hide it from me and only told me after the college entrance examination.

但是 终究 扛不住 才 突然 告诉 我 的 but|ultimately|can't bear|only|suddenly|tell|me|attributive marker But in the end, they couldn't hold it in and suddenly told me.

那 也 是 第 2 次 看见 父亲 的 眼泪 that|also|is|||see|father|attributive marker|tears That was also the second time I saw my father's tears.

第 1 次 是 在 爷爷 去世 的 时候 first|time|is|at|grandfather|passed away|attributive marker|time The first time was when my grandfather passed away.

我 18 岁 的 生日 I|years old|attributive marker|birthday My 18th birthday

确实 难以 忘怀 indeed|difficult to|forget It is indeed unforgettable

还 给 我 发 了 一个 大笑 的 表情 still|to|me|send|past tense marker|one|laughing out loud|attributive marker|emoji He also sent me a big laughing emoji

还 挺 乐观 的 still|quite|optimistic|attributive marker Pretty optimistic too

在 之后 我 高考 算是 超常 发挥 上 了 at|after|I|college entrance examination|can be considered|extraordinary|performance|on|emphasis marker After that, I performed exceptionally well in the college entrance examination.

一个 还 算 可以 的 专业 之后 的 几 one|still|consider|acceptable|attributive marker|major|after|attributive marker|several After that, I chose a major that was considered acceptable.

年 也 算是 相对来说 平淡 的 过去 了 year|also|can be considered|relatively speaking|bland|attributive marker|past|emphasis marker The following few years were relatively uneventful.

一直 到 今年 都 还是 如此 always|until|this year|still|still|so It has remained this way until this year.

我 父亲 当时 为了 帮 母亲 还债 I|father|at that time|in order to|help|mother|pay off debts My father at that time worked hard to help my mother pay off debts.

可以 说 是 殚精竭虑 can|say|is|exhaust one's efforts You could say he was exhausted and devoted.

他 虽 在 体制 内 he|although|in|system|inside Although he was within the system,

但是 家里 的 条件 真的 都 是 他 一点点 挣来 的 the conditions at home were really all earned by him little by little.

并 没有 通过 任何 不当 的 方式 获取 and|not|through|any|improper|attributive marker|means|obtain Did not obtain through any improper means.

所以 经历 了 这次 事情 后 so|experience|past tense marker|this time|event|after So after experiencing this incident,

他 也 没有 了 任何 存款 he|also|not have|anymore|any|savings he also has no savings left.

前前后后 支出 应该 是 接近 back and forth|expenditure|should|be|close to The total expenses should be close to.

或者 超过 8 位数 够 or|exceed|digits|enough Or more than 8 digits is enough.

工资 也 要 存 起来 支付 我 的 学费 salary|also|need|save|up|pay|my|attributive marker|tuition fee The salary also needs to be saved to pay for my tuition.

他 自己 的 生活 只能 靠 出差费 和 节假日 he|himself|attributive marker|life|can only|rely on|travel expenses|and|holidays He can only rely on travel expenses and holiday allowances for his own living.

的 补贴 以及 家人 的 一些 支撑 attributive marker|subsidy|and|family|attributive marker|some|support And some support from family.

而 我 母亲 上 虽然 尚未 还清 所有 的 账务 but|I|mother|on|although|not yet|pay off|all|attributive marker|debts And although my mother has not yet settled all the accounts,

但 也 去 了 新 的 地方 but|also|go|past tense marker|new|attributive marker|place she has also gone to a new place,

有 了 新 的 开始 have|emphasis marker|new|attributive marker|beginning and has a new beginning,

也 有 了 可以 清帐 的 希望 also|have|emphasis marker|can|clear accounts|attributive marker|hope and there is hope for settling the accounts.

这 大概 就是 目前 的 结局 this|probably|is|currently|attributive marker|ending This is probably the current ending.

相较 我 自己 来说 compared to|I|myself|speaking of Compared to myself,

通过 这些 事情 through|these|things through these events,

我 也 看清 了 太多 的 事情 和 人 I|also|see clearly|past tense marker|too many|attributive marker|things|and|people I have also seen too many things and people clearly.

包括 那些 雪中送炭 的 关系 include|those|timely help in times of need|attributive marker|relationship Including those relationships that provide timely help in times of need.

和平 居 闹市 无人 问 的 冷漠 peace|reside|bustling city|no one|ask|attributive marker|indifference The indifference of a peaceful place in a bustling city where no one asks.

对于 母亲 我 也 没有 regarding|mother|I|also|have not I also have no grievances towards my mother.

任何 怨念 any|resentment I have no resentment at all.

我 父亲 也 是 如此 I|father|also|is|so My father is the same.

其实 我 自己 都 很 奇怪 actually|I|myself|all|very|strange Actually, I myself am quite strange.

但是 这 可能 就是 我 的 性格 but|this|possibly|is just|my|attributive marker|personality But this might just be my personality.

对于 生养 自己 的 父母 regarding|raise|own|attributive marker|parents Regarding the parents who raised me.

可能 无论 发生 了 什么 possibly|no matter|happen|past tense marker|what Perhaps no matter what happens

他们 终究 是 我 最 亲 的人 they|ultimately|are|my|most|close|people They are ultimately the closest people to me

也 只能 说 通过 之后 共同 的 努力 also|can only|say|through|after|joint|attributive marker|effort I can only say that through our joint efforts afterwards

能 让 事情 有 一个 尽可能 完善 的 结局 can|make|things|have|one|as possible|perfect|attributive marker|ending We can achieve a conclusion that is as perfect as possible

关于 影响 方面 about|influence|aspect Regarding the aspect of influence

其实 对于 我 来说 actually|for|me|speaking Actually, for me

最大 的 影响 就是 越来越 自闭 了 biggest|attributive marker|influence|is|more and more|withdrawn|emphasis marker The biggest influence is that I have become more and more withdrawn

慢慢 变得 更加 相信 自己 slowly|become|more|believe|oneself Slowly becoming more confident in myself

也 更加 想 做好 自己 的 事情 also|even more|want|do well|oneself|attributive marker|things I also want to do my own things better.

我 也 问过 我 自己 为什么 没有 I|also|asked|myself|self|why|not have I have also asked myself why I haven't.

歇斯底里 或者 一蹶不振 hysteria|or|unable to recover from a setback I haven't been hysterical or fallen into despair.

没有 标准 答案 no|standard|answer There is no standard answer.

但 或许 是 因为 父亲 和 我 一直 在 相互 鼓励 but|perhaps|is|because|father|and|I|always|at|mutually|encourage But perhaps it is because my father and I have been encouraging each other.

也 可能 因为 不忍心 看到 家里 老人 的 表情 在 also|possibly|because|unwilling|see|at home|elderly|attributive marker|expression|at It may also be because I can't bear to see the expressions of the elderly at home.

或者 是 我 本来 就是 一个 没有 感情 的 学习 or|is|I|originally|just|one|without|emotions|attributive marker|learner Or maybe I am just a learning machine without emotions.

和 上班 机器 ，又 一个 大笑 的 表情 and|work|machine|again|one|big laugh|attributive marker|expression And another expression of a big smile.

没事 的 时候 no problem|attributive marker|time When there's nothing to do

我 自己 算过 I|myself|have calculated I calculated it myself

大概 高中 和 大学 这 几年 生活费 approximately|high school|and|university|these|years|living expenses Roughly the living expenses for these few years in high school and university

也 赚 了 小 50 万 人民币 了 also|earn|emphasis marker|about|500000|RMB|emphasis marker I also earned about 500,000 RMB

这 大概 是 和 我 能 顺利 考上 称心 的 专业 为 2 this|probably|is|and|I|can|smoothly|get into|satisfactory|attributive marker|major|as This is probably the reason why I was able to smoothly get into a satisfying major.

让 我 觉得 能 为 家里 做 一些 let|me|feel|can|for|home|do|some It makes me feel like I can do something for my family.

事情 的 小小 骄傲 的 了 thing|attributive marker|tiny|pride|attributive marker|emphasis marker It's a small pride for me.

很多 细节 我 漏 了 没 说 many|details|I|miss|past tense marker|not|say There are many details that I missed and didn't mention.

这 就是 大概 是 我 的 故事 this|is|roughly|is|my|attributive marker|story This is probably my story.

非常 感谢 你们 能 听到 这里 very|thank|you|can|hear|here Thank you very much for listening to this point.

还是 如果 开头 所说 这个 故事 still|if|at the beginning|said|this|story Still, if the story mentioned at the beginning...

大概 不 符合 你们 的 要求 probably|not|meet|your|attributive marker|requirements It probably does not meet your expectations.

感谢 你们 的 耐心 thank|you|attributive marker|patience Thank you for your patience.

祝 铛姐 柳哥 身体 健康 wish|sister Dang|brother Liu|health|healthy Wishing Sister Dang and Brother Liu good health.

事业 顺利 阖家 欢乐 career|smooth|whole family|happiness Wishing you success in your career and happiness for the whole family.

家里 出 了 这么 大 的 事情 at home|happen|past tense marker|so|big|attributive marker|event Such a big incident happened at home.

但是 你 并 没有 放弃 but|you|not|have not|give up But you did not give up.

还 和 家人 互相 鼓励 still|and|family|each other|encourage You still encourage each other with your family.

一起 渡过 难关 together|get through|difficult times Together, you overcome difficulties.

我 觉得 是 很多 人 应该 值得 学习 的 心态 I|feel|is|many|people|should|worth|learning|attributive marker|mindset I think this is a mindset that many people should learn from.

祝 你 和 你 的 父母 一切 顺利 wish|you|and|your|attributive marker|parents|everything|smoothly Wishing you and your parents all the best.

我要 给 铛铛 还有 柳哥 分享 I want|to give|Dang Dang|and also|Liu Ge|share I want to share with Dangdang and Liu Ge.

一个 不 一定 正 能量 one|not|necessarily|positive|energy It's not necessarily positive energy.

但是 比较 真实 but|relatively|real But it's more realistic.

前 有 借鉴 意义 的 故事 front|have|reference|significance|attributive marker|story There are stories with reference significance.

我 和 同学 今年 刚 从 国内 一所 理工 I|and|classmates|this year|just|from|domestic|one|science and engineering My classmates and I just graduated this year from a domestic polytechnic.

211 机械 专业 本科 毕业 mechanical|major|undergraduate|graduation We graduated with a bachelor's degree in Mechanical Engineering from a 211 university.

一流 的 985 院 院校 应该 会 好 一点 first-class|attributive marker|university|institutions|should|will|better|a bit A top 985 university should be better.

但是 同类 别的 211 院校 but|similar type|other|universities However, other 211 universities of the same kind

尤其 是 理工类 especially|is|science and engineering fields Especially in the field of science and engineering

国内 对 学生 的 理想 教育 domestic|towards|students|attributive marker|ideal|education The ideal education for students in the country

专业 兴趣 和 人生 价值 的 教导 很 欠缺 major|interest|and|life|value|attributive marker|guidance|very|lacking Lacks guidance on professional interests and life values

我们 俩 不 愿意 从事 思维 比较 we|two|not|willing|engage in|thinking|comparison Neither of us is willing to engage in rigid traditional manufacturing.

僵硬 的 传统 制造业 rigid|attributive marker|traditional|manufacturing industry However, we also lack guidance from knowledgeable predecessors.

但是 又 缺乏 有识之士 的 前辈 的 引导 but|also|lack|knowledgeable people|attributive marker|seniors|attributive marker|guidance Therefore, on the journey to find our ideals, we are also stumbling.

所以 在 寻找 理想 的 途中 也 是 步履蹒跚 so|in|searching for|ideal|attributive marker|journey|also|is|stumbling

去年 考研 他 想 的 比较 清楚 last year|graduate school entrance exam|he|think|attributive marker|relatively|clear Last year, he had a clearer idea about the graduate entrance exam.

找到 愿意 从事 一生 的 职业 法学 find|willing|engage in|lifetime|attributive marker|profession|law He found a profession he was willing to engage in for a lifetime: law.

我 当时 还 没有 就 先 学 了 自动化 专业 备考 I|at that time|still|not yet|then|first|study|past tense marker|automation|major|prepare for exams At that time, I hadn't decided yet, so I first studied automation as my major to prepare.

后来 我 发现 自己 真正 中心 的 方向 是 经济学 later|I|discover|myself|truly|center|attributive marker|direction|is|economics Later, I realized that my true central direction was economics.

但 离 出事 还有 两个 月 but|until|incident|still have|two|months But there are still two months until the incident.

时间 也 过 了 time|also|pass|emphasis marker Time has also passed.

报名 时间 无法 更改 registration|time|cannot|change The registration time cannot be changed.

所以 准备 停掉 复习 so|prepare|stop|review So I am preparing to stop reviewing.

当时 阻力 是 很大 的 at that time|resistance|is|very large|attributive marker At that time, the resistance was very great.

我们 俩 的 父母 都 只是 比 农民 we|two|attributive marker|parents|all|only|than|farmers Both of our parents were just slightly better than farmers.

稍微 好 一点 的 工薪阶层 slightly|better|a bit|attributive marker|working class They were a little better off than the working class.

认为 学 有 一技之长 think|study|have|a skill They believed in having a skill or expertise.

勤勤恳恳 才能 立足 社会 diligent and earnest|can|stand firm|society Diligence and hard work are necessary to establish oneself in society.

也 很 难 also|very|difficult It's also very difficult.

理解 理想 人生 价值 之类 的 精神 需求 understanding|ideal|life|value|such as|attributive marker|spiritual|need It's hard to understand spiritual needs like ideals and the value of life.

我 同学 也 是 在 出 事 后 才 告诉 爸妈 I|classmate|also|is|at|happen|incident|after|only|tell|parents My classmate only told their parents after the incident.

想要 报考 法学 want to|take the exam|law I want to apply for law.

那 段 时间 是 真的 that|period|time|is|real That period of time was really something.

曾经 我 也 想 过 一了百了 once|I|also|think|about|end it all I once thought about ending it all.

但 毕竟 自己 也 是 成年人 but|after all|oneself|also|is|adult But after all, I am an adult.

要 学 着 为 自己 的 行为 承担 责任 need|learn|ongoing action marker|for|oneself|attributive marker|behavior|bear|responsibility One should learn to take responsibility for their own actions.

也 能 理解 父母 的 担忧 also|can|understand|parents|attributive marker|worries One can also understand the worries of parents.

觉得 孩子 心气 高 feel|child|spirit|high It is felt that children are ambitious.

容易 眼高手低 easy|high expectations but low ability They are often overly ambitious but lack practical skills.

我 不 愿意 和 他们 争吵 I|not|willing|with|them|argue I am unwilling to argue with them.

因为 没有 意义 because|no not have|meaning Because it is meaningless.

但是 又 很 难 让 他们 理解 我 的 but|again|very|difficult|make|them|understand|my|attributive marker But it is very difficult to make them understand my thoughts.

想法 所以 焦躁 idea|so|anxious So I feel anxious.

我 试图 去 寻找 一条 可以 追逐 理想 I|try to|to|find|one|can|chase|ideals I try to find a path that can pursue my ideals

又 不 让 他们 担心 的 道路 again|not|let|them|worry|attributive marker|road without making them worry

所以 矛盾 有人 不会 理解 so|contradiction|some people|will not|understand So the contradiction is something that some people won't understand

理想 真的 那么 吸引 人 吗 Are ideals really that attractive?

我们 有 个 高 两届 的 学长 we|have|one|tall|two sessions|attributive marker|senior We have a senior who is two years older than us.

他 也 是 跨考 法学 he|also|is|cross-examination|law He also switched to studying law.

算上去 年 那次 是 第 3 次 了 counting|year|that time|is|ordinal marker|3rd time|emphasis marker Counting last year's attempt, this is the third time.

但是 还是 没有 考上 but|still|not|get admitted But he still hasn't been accepted.

他 家境 还 不错 he|family background|still|good His family background is quite good.

爸妈 给 他 在 校外 买 了 套房 parents|give|him|at|off-campus|buy|past tense marker|apartment His parents bought him an apartment off-campus.

让 他 安心 复习 let|him|feel at ease|review So that he can study with peace of mind.

之后 听说 他 工作 了 after|heard that|he|work|past tense marker Later, I heard that he got a job.

但 还 在 准备 司法 考试 but|still|in|prepare|judicial|exam But still preparing for the judicial examination.

理想 或者说 人生 的 方向 是 ideal|or rather|life|attributive marker|direction|is The ideal or the direction of life is.

支撑 我们 活下去 的 源泉 support|us|live on|attributive marker|source The source that supports us to live.

失去 泉眼 lose|spring Losing the spring.

泉水 只会 干涸 spring water|only|dry up The spring will only dry up.

后来 我 在 校 招签 了 一家 国企 later|I|at|school|recruited|past tense marker|one|state-owned enterprise Later, I signed up with a state-owned enterprise at school.

现在 也 在 工作 now|also|at|work Now I am also working.

朝 八 晚 五 工资 还 行 morning|eight|evening|five|salary|still|okay It's a 9 to 5 job and the salary is okay.

周末 双休 weekend|two days off Weekend, two days off.

这 得 感谢 母校 this|must|thank|alma mater This should be credited to my alma mater.

虽然 我 不 喜欢 她 although|I|not|like|her Although I don't like her.

我 同学 去 了 华南理工 读 知识产权 法 I|classmate|go|past tense marker|South China University of Technology|study|intellectual property|law My classmate went to South China University of Technology to study intellectual property law.

经过 几个 月 的 沟通 after|several|months|attributive marker|communication After several months of communication

我 虽然 说服 了 父母 I|although|persuaded|past tense marker|parents I managed to persuade my parents

我 也 在 工作中 一边 复习 一边 I|also|at|work|while|review|while I am also reviewing while working

提升 自己 的 各种 能力 improve|oneself|attributive marker|various|abilities to improve my various abilities

计划 明年 辞职 plan|next year|resign Plan to resign next year

对 考 西方 经济学 ，啰嗦 这么 多 towards|exam|Western|economics|verbose|so|much Talking so much about Western economics for the exam

主要 还是 跟 大家 共勉 main|still|with|everyone|encourage each other Mainly to encourage everyone together

理想 和 现实 的 差距 ideal|and|reality|attributive marker|gap The gap between ideals and reality

根据 个人 的 情况 不同 而 大相径庭 according to|individual|attributive marker|situation|different|and|vary greatly It varies greatly depending on individual circumstances.

我 的 高三 同学 本科 就 学 了 法律 I|attributive marker|senior year|classmate|undergraduate|already|study|past tense marker|law My high school classmate studied law for their undergraduate degree.

然后 保研 中国政法大学 then|graduate school recommendation|China University of Political Science and Law Then they pursued a master's degree at China University of Political Science and Law.

攻读 宪法 与 行政法学 pursue|constitution|and|administrative law They are studying constitutional law and administrative law.

他 的 人生 目标 以及 自己 的 理想 规划 he|attributive marker|life|goal|and|oneself|attributive marker|ideal|plan His life goals and his own ideal plans.

离不开 父母 的 熏陶 与 远见 cannot be separated from|parents|attributive marker|influence|and|foresight Cannot be separated from the influence and vision of his parents.

有 的 条件 是 我 无法 选择 的 have|attributive marker|conditions|is|I|unable to|choose|attributive marker Some conditions are beyond my choice.

但 我 愿意 用 一生 去 追逐 自己 喜欢 的 事业 but|I|willing|use|a lifetime|to|pursue|oneself|like|attributive marker|career But I am willing to spend my life pursuing the career I love.

同时 也 该 关心 父母 的 忧虑 at the same time|also|should|care about|parents|attributive marker|worries At the same time, I should also care about my parents' worries.

他们 辛劳 抚养 我 这么 多年 they|hard work|raise|me|so|many years They have worked hard to raise me for so many years.

虽然 他们 的 想法 比较 保守 古板 although|they|attributive marker|ideas|relatively|conservative|rigid Although their thoughts are relatively conservative and old-fashioned,

但 他们 是 真的 想 用 自己 的 经历 来 帮助 我 but|they|are|really|want|use|own|attributive marker|experience|to|help|me they really want to use their own experiences to help me.

尽管 有时候 比较 迂腐 although|sometimes|relatively|pedantic Although sometimes it feels rather pedantic.

尺度 的 把握 对 我 来说 不好 操作 scale|attributive marker|grasp|for|me|to say|difficult|operate Grasping the scale is difficult for me to operate.

无人 指引 no one|guidance No one to guide.

甚至 无人 能 懂 这种 无奈 与 无措 even|no one|can|understand|this kind of|helplessness|and|helplessness Not even anyone can understand this helplessness and confusion.

唯有 自己 负重 前行 only|oneself|bear weight|move forward Only I can carry the weight and move forward.

可 我 也 得 学会 成长 but|I|also|must|learn to|grow But I also have to learn to grow.

学会 处理 这些 事情 learn to|handle|these|matters Learn to deal with these things.

因为 不想 放弃 就 必须 有所 舍弃 because|do not want|give up|then|must|have some|abandon Because if I don't want to give up, I must let go of something.

我 是 成年人 I|am|adult I am an adult.

在 追逐 人生 价值 的 时候 at|pursue|life|value|attributive marker|time When pursuing the value of life,

也 应该 also|should one should also

关心 自己 的 朋友 亲人 care about|oneself|attributive marker|friends|relatives care about one's friends and family.

放心 rest assured Don't worry

我 这样 告诫 自己 I|this way|warn|myself I advise myself like this

希望 能 勉励 一起 将 余生 献祭 hope|can|encourage|together|to|remaining life|dedicate I hope to encourage together to dedicate the rest of our lives

理想 的 同学们 坚强 的 同时 ideal|attributive marker|classmates|strong|attributive marker|at the same time to the ideal classmates who are strong at the same time

也 不要 忘记 温柔 also|don't|forget|gentleness Don't forget to be gentle.

让 家人 放心 let|family|rest assured Put your family at ease.

让 自己 能够 有 生活 下去 的 能力 的 同时 let|oneself|be able to|have|life|continue|attributive marker|ability|attributive marker|at the same time While ensuring you have the ability to continue living,

分出 一部分 精力 来 追逐 理想 allocate|a part|energy|to|pursue|ideals allocate some energy to pursue your dreams.

我 觉得 非常 值得 鼓励 I|feel|very|worth|encouragement I think it is very worth encouraging.

加油 祝 你 一切 顺意 keep it up|wish|you|everything|go smoothly Keep it up, I wish you all the best.

以上 就是 这次 我 收到 的 来信 了 above|just|this time|I|received|attributive marker|letter|emphasis marker That is all the letters I received this time.

希望 我 没有 漏下 的 hope|I|not have|miss out|attributive marker I hope I haven't missed anything.

因为 私信 实在 是 太 多 了 because|private messages|really|is|too|many|emphasis marker Because there are just too many private messages.

很 难 整理 very|difficult|organize It's hard to organize.

我 说不定 还 会 做 观众 来信 I|maybe|still|will|do|audience|letters I might even do audience letters.

第 2 期 number|issue Issue 2.

这 一期 我 真的 收获 满满 this|episode|I|really|harvest|full In this episode, I really gained a lot.

希望 大家 看到 这个 视频 也 会 觉得 收获 满满 hope|everyone|see|this|video|also|will|feel|gains|full I hope everyone who watches this video will also feel that they have gained a lot.

也 感谢 所有 给 我 写信 的 所有 观众 also|thank|all|to|me|write letters|attributive marker|all|audience I also want to thank all the viewers who wrote to me.

还有 谢谢你们 给 我 和 看 完 这个 视频 And thank you for watching this video until the end.

的 所有 小伙伴 们 的 带来 的 感动 attributive marker|all|friends|plural marker|attributive marker|bring|attributive marker|emotion The emotions brought by all my friends

还有 正能量 still have|positive energy and the positive energy

就 像 我 视频 开头 所 说 just|like|I|video|beginning|that|said just like I said at the beginning of my video

虽然 我们 都 是 很 平凡 很 渺小 although|we|all|are|very|ordinary|very|insignificant even though we are all very ordinary and insignificant

渺小 的 人类 tiny|attributive marker|humanity Insignificant humans

但是 我们 也 会 在 世界 各个 but|we|also|will|in|world|various But we will also live seriously in every corner of the world

角落 里面 很 认真 的 生活 corner|inside|very|seriously|attributive marker|life Wishing all of you health, happiness, and joy

祝你们 所有人 健康 幸福 快乐 wish you all|everyone|health|happiness|joy

谢谢 收看 这次 的 视频 thank you|watching|this time|attributive marker|video Thank you for watching this video.

下个 视频 见 拜拜 next|video|see|bye bye See you in the next video, bye!